Never Too Late To Regret Or To Say Sorry

3rd May -

well woke up late today and as usual also reach work late......Been working non-stop since I step into the office....After work, I just went over to meet my brother for dinner before heading home....

Well what a night for me to remember......There I was again sitting right in front of my comp.....reading my blog....I was quite astonished as to what I had written on my blog....As that time didnt realise but then now realise that the words that I type out are hurtful words which I never had any intention of doing so....Its never my idea to use words to hurt someone....Recalling my thoughts on Monday night before I sleep, I post another blog on tues night which to apologise to those who I had hurt with my senseless and foolish words....

Nowadays, I think there are 2 james In myself.....One moment, I am like my normal self chatting around and playing a fool like a normal james....Then one moment when I am alone, its like the other me taking over my mind and doing and imagining senseless things....You guys might think its crap but then this is what is happening to me....I am thinking of seeing a physciatrist but then better not and see how its goes.....

Well around 10 plus, someething happen and i kinda leave my house in a hurry and hide in a corner and cry......why i cry? I had done things which I regretted so much that I cant even forgive myself for my foolish thinking....Anyway also kinda of disappointed that night that some of my friends think that I am a guy who do things with intention to hurt.... How funny could it be for me.....hahaha Here My principle in life is to always treat all my friends equally and close friends like my relatives and thought they should know my personality well but then in the end, i am just a evil guy with evil intention insome of their eyes....hahahahaha....

To me now is that I wanna put everything behind me and I just wanna find friends as in the sense as good friends who can share my happiness and troubles......... I also wanna to treasure my usual those few close friends which I had.......(quite ironically that In the past i use to scare of death a lot but then nowadays, its like i take death as in an natural way...if its my turn to go then I am fine with it....Maybe when I am written from the face of the earth, People might or might not remember me....) ==> My own PersonaL opinion On death.....

At Here, I would like to offer my sincere Apologies To the person I had hurt and tarnish her reputation because of my senseless words. I realli hope you will accept my apologies and let bygones be bygones....You know that I dun have the intention or the heart at all to hurt you..........Though I know that words had already beeen say and damage has already been done but then its never too late for me to regret my action and apologise for my action.....As I say Now and always, no matter whatever Happens , you will always be one of my close friends......

A Fresh Start For Me~

Hm.....1st of May is also marks a day whereby a new life for me has started......Quite surprising as I was despairing a few days ago as written in my blog......Well I kinda of being knocked in the head by some of my close friends......

A few of my close friends have been monitoring my blog which I am kinda of surprised of it....Well they sort of call me up and ask me what happened to me.......i kinda of ans in despair whereby they just screw me off on the phone telling me that I am still living in the past and should take my current problems as priority......My close friends also dun wanna me to be like that...After being screw by them......I as usual lied on bed and thought it thru.....Well quite true is that I had current problems to handle and take care off which I had left it untouched for quite sometime.....

For once I had decided to make up my mind and forget about the thing that has past and to take care of my current problems.....To make sure that everything goes smoothly and to ensure a happy ending for all my problems..(Only a few guys know). Thru this period, I will like to thnks for all those close friends and friends who have been supporting and lending me a hand in these period and also I will like to offer my deepest apologies to those who I had offended or hurt with my senseless words......Pls forgive the childish and foolish side of me......

well Monday which is the 2nd May also an holiday thnks to sunday labour day gives me an extra day to rest which I took the opportunity with full hands to sleep until mid afternoon....I woke up and wash up before heading for my second attachment......Hmm.....a few new people came in but nothing new to us....The show was Laura Fygi also known as Diva Of Jazz.....But then the show turnout was only about less than 1000 people attending....with that the show was quite easily to handle......But then we realise that this wednesday ABC Event will be a hard one to handle as it iss featuring all the rock bands from Taiwan. Well.....When I felt alseep that night, I had a nice sweet dream which I didnt have for quite sometime....Whats the content of it.......Sssh....Its Private and Confidential.....Lol.......

*whistle*

Distance Getting Longer & Longer

Well Well Well, I am back for blog again and some of my friends are complaining that I dun blog everyday......For what the hell to blog everyday if your life is nothing but the same everyday right.....As always say, Life as a single is always not as exciting as in a relationship...at least this is how i feel.....

Nothing is different except on the 29th April, I took a half day to settle my bike insurance, instalment and also road tax and it cost me about 3/4 of my pay......Welll this is what I had to face for riding a bike right.......After payment I just met up with some of my friends and hang around with....Well my mum was quite piss off that I never call her home that I didnt call her and something in my house kinda went haywire...Dun wanna to go into details.....but for those people who know, pls kindly keep it to yourself.......

30th April - Woke up in the morning by my bro at around 7.30 am for a course on security at indoor stadium..Well Thru this course, learnt a lot of things on terroism.After tat, went over to Jaime house for a game of mahjong....quite surprising, 3 of them won and i am the only one lose...lol...After that, we went over to geylang for frog leg porrigde before going home at around 2am.....

31 st April - Woke up the same timing as sat and went for course...This time the course was teaching us how to handle with difficult situations and how to counter attack when being attack....the lecturer was Mr Aaron Le Boutiller...Quite an nice guy and funny as well.....After the course, me and henry went over to meet Lina, Her sis, Zhi Rong and Sherri.... We met at cineleisure at 430pm and went to partyworld for karoake....kinda of having fun time but then rest of them all notice when the songs i sang is all sad songs..I myself also duno until they told me...but then they still applause for my performance... After that, we went for dinner at Burger King and we chat for awhile before each of us heading home straight.....Below are My thoughts for Yesterday before I sleep.....

Thoughts: For these days, I have been thinking "god, you let me out in this world but then why are you giving me nothing but sadness from lots of things...You took away the most beautiful thing I had in life and give me nothing but despair" Well Life is like that....Except with a purpose of live on, I see there's no purpose in life.........